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Episode 5

It feels like a good start to an important day.  Melissa bounces in and is wearing a pendant. I mention it because it is rare that she adorns herself with anything but herself, I asked her to read the message on her necklace. It says: Live to love and Love to live. She knows something about almost everything. She loves to dance and loves to create her surroundings into complete and positive energies.

We begin to delve into and discuss current events as we try to fit them into our day. I ask what she means when she is talking about the Pharmaceutical companies. WE discuss how they have so many new discoveries and would probably save lives and ease so much pain if they would share, but being a business, they adhere to their money making concerns first and foremost. Melissa made an interesting discovery on why she thinks the pills are disturbing my whole being and cause me to be exceedingly high and uncomfortable. She realized that the purpose of the time-released medicine should be reviewed and adjustments made often. I enjoy being high, when too much of certain drugs linger, because it is boosting my thoughts. The crash, coming down, may not worth it. Finally we wrote a scathing note to the doctor nearly begging for help. We became owners of an appointment for 8 weeks later. Another scathing letter was written and so far we still have two weeks to go. But forgive me I am wallowing and pulling dear Melissa through the muddy torture and bending your ears.

I mention to her my belief in the righteousness of vertical affairs. She turns in my direction with a look on her face that says, Tell me. So I begin. We have been taught to be tried and true to all of the special commitments in our lives. I felt captured and ordered to continue learning from sources only allowed only by man made rules. For example, I have understood that when you commit yourself to one and only one man you cannot even be seen talking to another man. Goodness Gracious folks get a grip.

I begin telling Melissa that I believe that my life, my success in being able to think on both sides of the fence, the ability to maintain a feeling of strength and pride in accomplishing health and vigor come from the belief if I am standing, I can share and receive pertinent information from any being on God’s green earth. I have learned and shared STANDING, and now understand why I have such a continuous backache! It is so much more than vertical standing that tires the heart and soul of life itself.

How in the world did I break my back into tiny pieces when all of the vertebrae tumbled down in domino effect?

The people who love me very much wanted me to have a lovely experience with the newest concept in deep penetrating message. I said, “No thank you, but at their insistence, I succumbed. About 5 minutes after the message began a horrible striking pain went through my hips. Nothing had ever or has ever compared. Within several days I was taken by ambulance to the hospital and further on to a rehab.

I hope none of you have experienced some of the bad times written about some Rehabs. One morning a nurse came to get me for a shower. She prefaced my shower invitation with the fact I was her favorite patient. I smiled and backed up charging my presence with a huge hose spouting the biggest rush of flowing water spilling everywhere that I can ever remember seeing. It shot at me smack dab in middle and I will never forget that scene, and those moments of sheer terror and shame. I rooted myself to all that I believe and cherish. I saw through the forest and through the trees. I knew that I would have to be strong to survive. I would have something important to achieve and knew that the spraying water was ultimately going to be a piece of cake!

Are you aware that you can be cemented up again vertebrae by vertebrae, but in reality there is implanted forever, the life long need for repair.

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