This morning we carried through with an early appointment to be, (don’t laugh), with Palliative Care. I’m not laughing at my uninformed self anymore, only praising their efforts. The concept is to prolong life by all medically effective means.
I went into the appointment with an agenda. The doctors listened intently to all my aches and pains. After I plead my case, they began to gently bombard me with questions upon questions. They pulled through the muddle and wondered who is this lady was who was so negative. I tried to explain it was ME, realizing that I have been extremely hard on myself. WHY? In real life the ME had to change to a more positive person. I’m done but not finished. I’m done looking back and I’m only looking forward. I’m finished with looking backwards.
I’m going to post a few of my writing’s that some of you may have read.
HOW TO CHANGE YOUR LUCK: POSITIVE ALTERING
Listen carefully and alter your thoughts according to each set of situations. Each situation has a set of sights and sounds. Study each before entering. If you are used to entering a certain way, change your entry and your thoughts. Perhaps this will be your simple solution, but I doubt it.
The next step is to address people you are not used to conversing with and in your entry assume humility! You must retain your real self in your hidden pocket and show your humility to whomever you have encountered. They will appreciate not having to tangle in your webs of fears, anxieties, and insecurities. Hide all of that from view and soon without stoking they will slowly but surely be eroded away.
It is what you are feeling that will attract the outside world to you. If the fears are hidden, how can fear find you? If the anxieties are hidden by a smile, how can they grow, and if all that bad luck is hidden in your pocket, how can it use any outward visual pulls to you?
Now for the real test of COURAGE. Try out humility all day today and see where you go. Facing danger, fear, uncertainty, and pain is courage in the raw. It is a new adventure. Take it slowly even adding more choices and willingness as you go. But go, and go in with HUMILITY! That is what I mean by Positive Altering, especially for many of us.
TRYING TO CATCH UP WITH MY MIND
I had my mind a few minutes ago, now where did it go?
It went south then east and now I don’t know.
Then I remember standing on tiptoes.
I’m looking for the center from which everything grows.
It must be the purpose in which we search
I lay claim to daily ritual and hopeful research.
Your mind and mine are still a forefront to all of our desires.
My mind lays claim to change,
It makes my world bloom and gathers other minds to inspire.
It is me who ascends or descends with my mind full nearly to the brim with thoughts and prose
Our bodies change our minds and I am forever trying to catch up with my mine. Hold on, let us all bring mindfulness to each other and begin the dancing in the moonlight, bringing thoughts of desire.
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Nov 10, 2019 @ 15:02:28
Dearest Sheila,
You are one of the most intelligent, creative, loving and strong women I know. To recognize the reality of your present takes real strength and I know you have it. You have a lifetime of love and achievements to call upon and they will raise you up, if you let them. I am so proud of all you are and so grateful for all you have given me.
The next phase will be challenging and much of it you must do alone but know that there are scads of people who love you and are sending strength your way.
You are so brave to share what you are currently experiencing. It is enormously loving and enlightening of you. I wish I knew you better. I am sure we would have had much to give each other.
Love you and thank you for being in my life,
Jacqui
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:37:52
Thank you soo much for your thoughts, they mean the world to me. I really appreciate what you have said, I need all the strength I can get. The next phase is going to be challenging as the past phases were. It helps to know that people are there for us. M&S
Nov 10, 2019 @ 15:25:13
Thank you for the mind altering thoughts. Such a great pleasure to read your posts!! love you. xoxo
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:34:27
Love you back. M&S
Nov 10, 2019 @ 17:09:47
Love Jacqui’s comment – oh so true – you are an amazing person. How lucky I am to have known you for so many years (high school, teaching, meetings with Skip). Hang in there. I’m just one of so many who love and admire you. Marie
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:33:47
M&S say we appreciate your strength in knowledge it what we are trying to do. You are always so sweet, and hope you are taking care of the cats. Stay close. M&S
Nov 10, 2019 @ 17:49:38
I don’t know what to say. No comment is adequate. So moving, so brave, so inspiring.
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:31:32
Thank you. Always looking forward to seeing how you are. I’m happy to report we see a strong positive attitude.M&S
Nov 10, 2019 @ 18:07:38
hi sheila, please be careful with palliative care. in canada, it means no further treatment. I can only hope yours is better that what we have seen.
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:29:58
Nancy you are so right. It wasn’t all I hoped it would be. I appreciate your insight.
Nov 10, 2019 @ 19:27:29
How privileged I am to know you, dear Sheila. The Irish would say
“You have a way with words”. I say “brilliant”.
Thank you.
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:28:17
You are a very special friend to me. Thank you for reading and commenting so sweetly. M&S
Nov 11, 2019 @ 04:45:55
Nov 13, 2019 @ 11:47:00
I have to smile picturing the doctors not knowing what hit them!! I. Think they probably learned more from you than they expected. Love love love your spirit and quick mind, and especially your heart.
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:26:10
Thank you for always seeing the bright side. You are a special friend, as friends should be. Love , love , love you too. M&S
Nov 23, 2019 @ 08:08:35
You taught me everything I know. Love you
Nov 14, 2019 @ 00:18:45
Sheila . Good for you. Do whatever you need to do . You Will be much MucHappier & better taking control of what makes you feel happier and more in control with your body. Much love to you . We miss you both. Jim & Diane >
Nov 17, 2019 @ 09:24:21
God bless you and keep on keeping on! M&S