If you could speak to anyone on the planet living or dead who would it be? This is a question I would like you to stop reading and ponder for a little while. Now you have firmly picked a person, see the person’s face, now take some time to gather what you would like to ask.

Thank you for your time. I would recall my Grandma Hannah, my mother’s mother. I would apologize.

I would apologize for not being the granddaughter she deserved. I would apologize for not knowing what I had to offer and for not knowing what she would have enjoyed. Oh, hindsight is such a glorious and perfectly edited teacher.

I would have sat longer at the dinner table with you when you made your delicious lamb chop to share with me. Where did I have to go in such a hurry? After all, I had the most important person in the world at that moment right across the table. My innocence, I apologize. I would have told you things, many things you would have thought about long after I was gone. My abrupt leaving left you only with the dishes and the clean up. Hardly the memory I would want you to have.

I would have come to visit you so many times more than I did. I would have realized that you didn’t even know me or I you. How could you have known much? I gave you so little time and conversation. I know some things about you because your six children told many stories.

Now, again, I have brought you here, not only to apologize, but because I want to tell you of the family you have created. I would tell you such nice things about them and their contributions to their world. How handsome your boys, how beautiful their wives: how lovely are your girls and how handsome their husbands. How beautiful and accomplished are every one of your grandchildren and your great grandchildren are as equal to any task as were their ancestors. I know the best is yet to come and I hope there are more times to talk.



12 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Pat Rieffanaugh
    Mar 21, 2016 @ 18:15:09

    What a beautiful grandmother, Sheila. Thanks for expressing what many of us have thought from time to time about our late elder family members. Oh, if only we could go back in time, how much more enlightened we might be.


  2. Sheryl Knopf
    Mar 21, 2016 @ 19:47:47

    Is that the young Hannah?


  3. nancyruth
    Mar 22, 2016 @ 04:49:21

    Food for thought. It’s a reminder to treasure those in our lives now because they will be gone. I would like to talk to my mother again.


    • Sheila Clapkin
      Mar 22, 2016 @ 15:19:50

      Dear Nancy,
      I do talk to my mother just out in the plain air and go to her burial site and thank her for so many things. I have a feeling she did not do things for thanks, but for her own satisfaction. I got that message too late in my life to tell her, so my messages come over the top of her grave.
      Thank you for this comment:


  4. Nuala Ryan
    Mar 22, 2016 @ 09:30:34

    Dear Sheila.

    How appropriate that I read this during HOlY WEEK which ends with EASTER SUNDAY. All Christians are called to (remember) in every sense of the word. I, a Catholic am reminded of a tenant of our Catholic faith “I believe in the communion of saints”. So, I have all the time in the world to do what you so graciously explore in this story, chatting with our loved ones who have died. Thank you so much for this time of reflection.

    I will share more when we meet.
    United in MYSTERY


    • Sheila Clapkin
      Mar 22, 2016 @ 15:22:24

      Isn’t it wonderful that I have received your True mystery comment during Holy Week. I am so happy that you and I, plus many others will be chatting with our loved ones who have died this week. I didn’t realize how perfectly this time of year ties into our missions.


  5. nancy cousins
    Mar 23, 2016 @ 08:48:08

    Dear Sheila, if only we could appreciate what we have when we have it. I too chat with my beautiful mom.
    nancy C


  6. Sheila Clapkin
    Mar 23, 2016 @ 17:54:17

    Nancy, so nice to hear from you. And yes, yes, if only we could appreciate the here and now. If only we could see what we would regret. Glad to hear to chat with your beautiful mama. Thank you for telling all of us. We should take heed. It is a great centering tool. I think.


  7. Sheryl
    Apr 01, 2016 @ 20:40:24

    This post is both a loving tribute to your grandmother, and a very thought-provoking post. So often we don’t fully appreciate people until years later.


    • Sheila Clapkin
      Apr 02, 2016 @ 10:39:53

      I always look forward to hearing from you because you always say the truth. I enjoy your 100Years post and I want to congratulate you on capturing your audience for years.(Maybe for 100 years. Gosh we will be so old then. Yay) Bravo!!! Love and cheers,


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